Posted originally 8/5/06
“Who, What When, Where, How, Why,” Part Two
“When the Tombstone is Inaccurate,
You Have to Stand and Make Hard Choices.”
By Monette Benoit, Kevin’s Sister
Sixth Year Tribute Copyright 2006
A year ago tonight, the fifth anniversary of my youngest brother’s death, my family traveled to the Texas coast with my eldest brother and family.
Friday, August 5th, near 9:00 p.m., we walked onto a long pier, single file.
A square wooden dock was attached to the end of this narrow, old pier.
Far out over the gulf water, two benches were bolted into the dock.
People busily worked shrimp cages, crab nets and multiple fishing poles.
These men and women were serious about their fishing.
Few looked up from their task at hand as we walked,
peering over their shoulders into their bait pails and buckets.
The wind was warm, blowing gently ––
– just enough to keep south Texas air moving from the cool gulf water.
The evening sky was crystal; stars sparkled brightly.
As James and I walked single file, he ahead of me,
I shared details about the posting of Kevin’s Fifth Year Tribute,
our youngest (baby) brother.
My elder brother, always a man of few words, turned, looked straight to me and solemnly said, “He’s better off now than where he was.”
I gasped, reached out for James.
“What do you mean?” I asked. “How could you say that?”
James, 6 foot 3 inches, stood perfectly still, and replied,
“Compared to what he was living with in the home with that wife, Tina, those stepchildren, and Michelle — that hell, and that illness, Kevin is in a better place now.”
I looked away into the dark water; silently we continued our walk toward the end of the pier.
I was haunted by his words and again wondered how we had traveled this winding road since December 23, 1997, Kevin’s first Hepatitis C diagnosis, which led to his death August 5th, 2000.
The winding road became entangled immediately after Kevin’s death,
as inaccurate facts attempted to become fact;
Kevin’s mammoth research never was returned to the Hep C community, nor were two items
Kevin’s parents requested –– just as Kevin predicted.
“Open your eyes and forget the day,
and you’ll see things in a different way.
Don’t stop thinking about tomorrow.
It will soon be here. It will be here better than before.
Yesterday’s gone. Yesterday’s gone.” Fleetwood Mac
As James and I sat on the wood benches, steady wind blowing, I was silent, deep in thought.
Tenderly, slowly, James reached for my left hand.
Adults and children gathered around us on the pier, which extended far over the rocks and water.
We held hands, joined by a huge moment; words were not necessary.
“Look over yonder and what do you see?
Love, love is the answer and that’s all right.
So don’t you give up now so easy to find.
Just look to your soul and open your mind.”
Tommy James and The Shondells
When it was time to leave, James’ sons, of course, resisted departure.
I stood and calmly said,
“I want a sign from Kevin.
I know this is a lot to ask, but I want a sign.
This is his fifth anniversary – this one hurts.”
My nephews, solemnly nodded, arms folded, planting their feet on the dock.
Within seconds, someone said, “Look, two dolphins in the water. LOOK!”
We looked out into the dark.
Under the starlit night, two dolphins were playfully swimming side by side, gliding through the water, jumping into the air.
My nephews always speak about their Uncle Kevin and immediately asked, “Was that the sign? Can we have another?”
James and I, raised on rich Irish lore with magical signs and bumps in the night, looked to each other;
together we blinked in silent communication and smiled.
“When you’re feeling low and the fish won’t bite
You need a little bit of soul to put you right.
You gotta make like you want to kneel and pray
And then a little bit of soul will come your way.” The Ramones
I said a quick prayer, stood from my seated position on the bench.
Then I heard the boys and James gasp.
“LOOOOK! A huge shooting star – right over there!!”
When I turned 180 degrees, the star was gone.
The boys and James stood, right arms raised high into the air, expressions of surprise and delight displayed on their smiling faces.
I looked at my family, sighed, head down, and said, “That’s all I needed.”
Though I never saw that shooting star, a year later,
the kids still speak about how huge the shooting star was,
how bright it was,
and how, once we asked Uncle Kevin for a sign, quote,
“IT JUST APPEARED!”
The adults and children began our single-file walk back down the pier and I hugged James.
James chuckled, the man of few words, and said,
“Yeah, Kevin was always the determined one!
He always knew how to make an entrance.
That ‘was’ Kevin. I’m sure that was a sign from Kevin!”
“Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler.” Albert Einstein
As I prepare this Sixth Tribute, head bowed, my dad, a veteran, diagnosed with Hepatitis C in 2003 from blood transfusions, is finishing 40 cancer radiation treatments.
This is a return of the cancer which prevented Kevin’s father from attending his youngest son Kevin Drue Donnelly’s funeral.
Though adults and teens at Dalton’s Funeral Parlor August 8th, 2000 continued to ask me, “Why are your parents really not here …,”
I stood tall, alone, repeating, “Dad had advanced cancer surgery.”
Of all Emmett’s children, Kevin was most like the father.
Their gusto for life, their determination and energy is/was true to the core.
A dear friend wrote: “Your dad and Kevin sound like a Hummer …a tank that can handle whatever comes its way!!”
Dad, now finishing 40 treatments, insisted on driving himself to and from each treatment for eight weeks of radiation treatment.
Emmett insisted, his words, quote, “staying in motion.”
Emmett would say every day, “I have to keep moving.
Once stopped, it is more difficult to start moving. I have to keep moving.”
Each day, after therapy, Emmett would go to a bookstore, to a library, to a grocery store – even if for a few minutes; then he drove home to rest.
Each day, Emmett made a trip ‘somewhere’ – focused on the prize at the end of the road –– “more motion, more of life;
Each day Emmett has said, “I’m not ready to die, damn it.”
On the last day of radiation, Emmett is scheduled to receive a diploma for having been so strong.
We, his family, are teasing him the diploma will most likely be an invoice.
Emmett throws his hands into the air and says,
“I don’t care; I just have to keep moving.”
“The future depends on what we do in the present.”
Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)
Kevin also believed, “You have to keep moving.”
Until his death, Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly was advocating, working to assist others with education and information about Hepatitis C, Hep C side effects, depression, working with veterans and their family how to access accurate information, then how to utilize the best, concise resources.
“Big boys don’t cry
Hey, I’m not ashamed to say a tear is in my eye
Because another tear will take its place before I die.” Extreme
Hours before Kevin was escorted out of his residence by two sheriffs, court ordered at request of Justine Velocci Donnelly, Kevin Donnelly, terribly ill in the final stages of Hep C, was assisting veterans around the world, assisting with preparations to open an online support coalition for veterans, Hep C inmates with Phyllis Beck and Dr. Ben Cecil, now located www.hcvinprison.org
And Kevin was preparing to speak about veterans and Hep C on a military radio show the next morning.
“It is easier to build a foundation of knowledge and prevention
than it is to rebuild a life destroyed by ignorance.”
Thelma King Thiel, Chair, CEO, HFI, Hepatitis Foundation International (friend to Kevin until his death) http://www.HepatitisFoundation.org
This last year has been filled with remarkable events – though, non-dramatic events we pray for, have yet to arrive in our personal and family Hep-C related world.
Strangers continue to reach out from the past to share about Kevin, his world, his research, his advocacy.
The good news:
Thousands are being educated; thousands are being diagnosed with HCV and HIV.
An accurate diagnosis is good news as individuals may then make life decisions on how to live with HCV.
Kevin predicted that HCV, Hep C, would piggyback the HIV virus.
Sadly, it is.
“Brother, brother, brother, there’s far too many of you dying.
You know we’ve got to find a way
What’s Going on, What’s Going on …” Marvin Gaye
As numbers continue to grow, people need research and access to Hepatitis C information in the trench, in the proper facilities, within each home and kitchen.
“It’s the same old song
but with a different meaning
since you been gone.” Four Tops
In prior postings:
I have included narratives, documented with facts on what it was like to live in Kevin’s shoes, specifically after his Hep C diagnosis;
I have included facts about military vaccinations, pneumatic jet needles used on multiple persons, the specific adenovirus, which appeared on Kevin’s altered military medical records.
I have included yearly Tributes to Kevin with continued-to-be-requested events.
People continue to request a movie with additional details on what ‘really’ happened when Kevin’s phone lines were tapped, his medical research was removed, his research were ripped into shreds, then left on the kitchen counter.
People continue to request a movie with additional details on what ‘really’ happened when Kevin’s personal world was tormented within his residence for the last two years of his life;
People continue to request a move with additional details on what really happened among the failure of people around Kevin – to include, what really happened with the failure of Kevin to change his own path.
“Doctor, doctor, what’s going on?
Can you tell me what’s going on?
Everything keeps going, going wrong.
And I keep looking for a sign.
I keep getting closer, closer to the other side.
I think I’m running out of time, running out of time.
Am I supposed to feel, am I having doubts?
Life is not always showing the truth and what is really real.
See I’m living all alone, playing solitaire,
But it’s kinda hard. I don’t wanna drown.
“I used to feel so free, but now my back’s against the wall.
Doctor, doctor, what’s going on?
Can you tell me what’s going on?” Bizzy Bone
Kevin did not change his path after his initial diagnosis.
Kevin truly believed his destiny had been laid out once he was told “you have two years to live, and you’re not a candidate for a liver transplant Merry Christmas.”
(Actual words used by a physician December 23, 1997).
I documented how Kevin did seek medical help and how Dr. Melissa Palmer, a person claiming to be a Hep C specialist, performed a biopsy on Kevin and the ramifications of Palmer’s actions.
In earlier postings, I published the letter Kevin Donnelly wrote to the state certifying board in New York documenting facts of Dr. Melissa Palmer and Kevin Drue Donnelly’s mistreatment.
When Kevin received a letter from the military stating “you must have acquired the Hepatitis C virus from homosexual activities or from drug use,” this letter — combined with words and actions of doctors — altered Kevin’s path forever.
As Kevin researched how he acquired Hepatitis C, he learned about military vaccinations, military and pharmaceutical experiments, soldiers who then became medical cases, which were tracked, followed.
I continue to share as Kevin asked me.
I continue to backup my work, to ensure others have facts.
I continue to look over my shoulder.
“The time to hesitate is through,
there’s no time to wallow in the mire.” The Doors
Yet I am committed to the responsibility to having this discussion.
This responsibility creates conversations about Hepatitis C and its multiple side effects and depression;
Responsibility includes conversations about families, about treatment;
Responsibility includes conversations about choices and lack of choices,
Responsibility includes conversations about misinformation and conversations about inaccurate information.
When we transform the message of diseases and people’s actions;
When we transform the message of their greed, their poor choices;
When we transform the message of lack of understanding and lack of compassion –
Then we then change conversations.
Changing conversations then becomes a venue:
A path for people who do not become victims,
A path for people who become informed and empowered patients.
I view the world from a different camera,
I view the world from a different lens once I learned my brother did not have anyone eat a meal within his residence during the last two years.
Kevin slept with a lock on his office door because teens and adults wanted Kevin to sell his research, sell his story, “The Panama Story.”
Had Kevin sold his research or “The Panama Story” those around Kevin might have changed ––
But one thing we do know: Kevin’s world would have changed.
Kevin was offered money by institutions to endorse their products.
Kevin was offered a free liver transplant, without the long wait, if Kevin would in turn ––
But Kevin took the path of most resistance insisting that if he, Kevin, sold his work, he would not be taken seriously.
Kevin believed that if he profited from the blood of others – Hep C blood – the road for others would be made worse.
Facts prove Kevin’s road was worsened by his choice never to profit from: his medical research; his contacts with individuals in the press, CDC, WHO, NIH, White House, international organizations, scientists, military specialists, anonymous individuals who phoned his residence in the wee hours of the night to speak only on the condition of anonymity;
Kevin chose personally not to profit from his military informants, political contacts, journalists and newsmakers.
All the networks and people Kevin worked with, nurtured and worked to weave together ––
–– All these, in Kevin Drue Donnelly’s opinion, would have disconnected further, fragmented further,
spilling away from the core,
away from a possible connection – accurate facts – about a disease, accurate facts about a virus now affecting millions of veterans, people, children.
“Picket lines and picket signs,
Don’t punish me with brutality
Talk to me, so you can see Oh, what’s going on? What’s going on?
Yeah, what’s going on?” Marvin Gaye
Sadly, Kevin Drue Donnelly did not do the predictable.
He did not take the path traveled more frequently.
I write each year and continue to meet with those who honestly document.
When I hear how others have learned from one family, Kevin’s family, and how each day, we wonder ‘what if’ –– then Kevin’s legacy and path is eased, one step, one step, one step.
Those regrets and inaccuracies may be badges to some, but to us, they are hard-earned scars.
We have a saying now in our family:
“When the tombstone is inaccurate, you have to stand and make hard choices.
The choices won’t be easy choices, but they will change your world because you have to take a stand.”
This saying was created when we learned that the tombstone of Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly was initially given a tombstone at Calverton National Cemetery for Second Lieutenant, August 9th 2000.
I still remember standing over the empty hole in the ground,
Kevin’s widow and their family quickly departed to attend a luncheon – before his casket was rolled off the portable stand under the little green tent with small gold velvet chairs.
“On the first part of the journey, I was looking at all the lights,
there were plants and birds and rocks and things
the heat was hot and the ground was dry but the air was full of sound.”
I went to Calverton’s main office at the recommendation of the representative from the Dalton Funeral Home.
There, I stood in line and asked where my brother’s casket was going.
The employees took me behind a partitioned wall, gave me a glass of water, directed me to a chair to rest, then handed me a map, marking ‘x’ where Kevin’s casket would have been delivered.
When I found the spot where Kevin’s casket was to have been placed,
the hole in the ground was empty, surrounded by four walls of white-beige concrete.
The number of his ‘hole in the ground’ was written in large letters with lime green chalk on a concrete wall, where the head of the casket would rest.
I stood, heart broken, and waited for Kevin’s casket.
Later, when union gravediggers arrived from their lunch break, they buried my brother “with respect”.
Strangers placed Kevin’s casket into the ground.
Many did not speak English; each wore a dark blue T-shirt, skin thickened from hot sun.
The supervisor, at my request, stood at the head of now-filled hole, fists on his hips, head down.
I, his sister, had been adamant that this soldier would be buried “with respect.”
“When you were young and your heart’s an open book,
you want to give it a try to live and let live.
You know you did, but in this ever changing world in which we live
makes you give in and cry.
Say live and let die. What does it matter to you?
When you got a job to do, you got to do it well.” Paul McCartney
Claverton cemetery employees, in unison, shoveled dirt into the hole covering his casket.
“And it’s so real, so real, so real, can you dig it?
The sun beaming down between the leaves
And the birds darting in and out of the trees.
Everything is so clear you can see it
Everything is so real you can feel it.
I can dig it. He can dig it. Can you dig it, baby?” Friends of Distinction
This memory from Kevin’s funeral, as others, are frozen in time.
They immediately flashback on a specific sound or breeze.
The sound of ropes banging on a flagpole, immediately flashes me back to driving into Calverton’s cemetery.
Their entrance is lined with tall flags, each raised high, heavy ropes banging the metal poles when the wind blows.
When I hear this sound, I immediately shudder, turn around, and sure enough a flagpole is nearby, rope banging against a metal pole.
“Oh, I’ve seen fire, and I’ve seen rain.
I seen sunny days that I thought would never end.
I seen lonely times when I could not find a friend.
But I always thought that I’d see you again.” James Taylor
As I walked away, I thanked the gravediggers –– never thinking to ask the rank and information that would arrive on Kevin’s tombstone.
The cemetery staff and funeral parlor employees each confirmed that paperwork filled out by his second wife, a veteran and a nurse, Justine Velocci Lomonte Donnelly, who filed for divorce prior to Kevin’s death, listed Kevin as second lieutenant.
My nephews keep asking,
“Why did that happen?
How could someone be so mean to granddad and grandma?”
I pause each time and answer, simple, direct answers to the children:
“When people are mad, people make bad choices.”
The children still reply, “Oh, yeah, like the bully on the school bus …”
“We don’t need to escalate …
You know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some loving here today.
What’s Going On?” Marvin Gaye
I listen as the next generation – which now includes a nephew serving in the military – listens to facts, forming own conclusions, as they age.
And they continue to ask at the oddest moments about their Uncle Kevin.
When asked, I show facts and results of Uncle Kevin’s work, to include gifts Kevin made, pictures of Kevin at their young ages from photo albums our dad compiled, now displayed in each of our homes.
Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly now has an accurate tombstone, a second tombstone was placed over his coffin, at taxpayer’s expense.
Even the younger generation now says,
“When the tombstone is inaccurate, you have to stand up and ––”
Children now asking about Uncle Kevin want to know why their grandparents were told, within 12 hours of Kevin’s death that Kevin “was waiting for others and there could have been a triple homicide as there was a spare bullet on the dresser.”
This is how each relative of Kevin received news of his death, Kevin’s parents, his siblings, Kevin’s family.
We each received a call from a stepchild ––
I received my call August 5th, 2000 from Rosanna.
“There is freedom within,
There is freedom without …
There’s a battle ahead.
Many battles are lost,
But you’ll never see the end of the road …
Hey now, hey now, don’t dream it’s over.
Hey now, hey now, when the world comes in,
They come to build a wall between us.
We know they won’t win. Don’t ever let them win.” Crowded House
Facts and conversations with law enforcement professionals who accurately documented the 742 Hancock Place, Lindenhurst, New York residence the morning of August 5th, 2000, documented these statements shared with Kevin’s parents, Kevin’s siblings and Kevin’s family were entirely false and completely inaccurate.
Again, the younger generation asks,
“How could someone have been so cruel, and why would they lie?”
We listen to the questions, answer the questions with facts and explain that all adults do not do this (another question frequently asked).
“When the tombstone is inaccurate,
you have to stand and make hard choices.”
August 2006, as Kevin’s father, finishing his cancer radiation treatments, would say, “You have to keep moving forward.”
We, as you, have moved forward, and as a result of Kevin’s research, his predictions, the inaccuracies of residents in the home, coupled with the virus vaccinations of military – positive results continue to unravel from Kevin’s work, from your work.
We now use the ‘inaccurate tombstone’ as a life-marking event.
“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life:
It goes on.” Robert Frost (1974-1963)
“Come on pretty baby, put your little hand in mine,
Things are shaking on the dance floor. Everybody’s feeling fine.
Don’t waste another minute. Step into the light,
Come on and dance with me tonight.” Wonders
Kevin was a researcher who reluctantly came to this path, assisting others. (He also loved to dance.)
He wrote press releases, was interviewed by U.S. News & World Report, Newsday, authored articles for multiple professional Journals.
Kevin grew into the spokesperson and advocate when he was alone, seeking answers and receiving none.
“By all means, marry.
If you get a good wife, you’ll become happy;
if you get a bad one, you’ll become a philosopher.” Socrates
I have a deep respect and understanding of Anderson Cooper’s message in his book Dispatches From The Edge: A Memoir of War, Disasters and Survival.
“Sometimes [change] happens overnight.
All it takes is the blink of an eye, the squeeze of a trigger, a sudden gust of wind. Wake up and your life is perched on a precipice; fall asleep, and it swallows you whole.
None of us likes to believe our lives are so precarious.”
After the death of his brother, Carter Cooper, Anderson said, “I wanted to be someplace …where the pain outside matched the pain I was feeling inside.
I also wanted to survive, and I thought I could learn from the others who had.
War seemed like my only option.”
I salute Anderson Cooper for sharing so honestly.
Anderson’s daily mantra, “Hold them accountable,” is sharp, accurate and ensures Anderson’s mission and his quest is not taken lightly.
After I posted the Fifth Tribute to Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly, August 5, 2005, I received a book in the mail.
Inside the package was a note:
“You will find this interesting. I see your brother’s fingerprints and his work here.
Read this book and share it with others. YOU MUST.”
The package contained: Vaccine –A, The Covert Experiment That’s Killing Our Soldier and Why GI’s Are Only the First Victims by Gary Matsumoto. ISBN 0-465-04400-X. Copyright 2004 by Gary Matsumoto
Information may be obtained by visiting www.Vaccine-A.com
Author Gary Matsumoto “has reported from 32 countries, five continents, two wars …He’s been the London Bureau Correspondent for NBC Radio News; a National Correspondent for NBC’s Weekend Today Show and Senior Correspondent for Fox New Channel.”
A ‘media coverage’ page, which may be accessed www.vaccine-a.com/media.html
“This book explodes like a grenade in the Pentagon’s privy.
Read it and weep; better yet, get mad,” wrote Col. David H. Hackworth, U.S. Army, retired, America’s most decorated living soldier, Author of About Face and Steel My Soldiers’ Hearts.
There’s also a message board where veterans and many have posted: www.vaccine-a.com/forum.html
I know if my brother, advocate, researcher, friend to thousands were alive, Kevin Donnelly would have read and posted on these issues.
“Defer no time, delays have dangerous ends.”
William Shakespeare (1564-1616)
- Who is at risk for Hepatitis C (a virus that now with strains to Hep G)?
- Hemophiliacs, veterans, recipients of blood transfusions, recipients of pneumatic needle injectors (used in military), recipients of multiple injections, prisoners, family members, health-care workers, hospital employees – people who work around blood – to include tattoos, manicures, first-rescue teams, dental patients.
Veterans Patient and Support Advocate writes:
“Hepatitis C Virus is the leading cause of Liver Transplantation in the U.S. today. According to the CDC, 1.8 percent of the U.S. population is infected with HCV. This comes to 4.9 million American.”
I understand these numbers do not include people serving in the military, prisoners or homeless.
Kevin used to say that the HCV virus would make HIV look like a ‘sneeze’ due to lack of accurate information, documentation and (mis)treatments.
I still shudder when I remember his words.
Kevin organized facts and data which supported the fact that the Hepatitis C he acquired was ‘gifted’ via military vaccinations.
Kevin organized dates, facts and data with others from the same locations and discovered data that narrowed his focus.
“If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn’t thinking.”
George S. Patton (1885-1945)
Kevin diligently researched and supplied information about the origins of Hepatitis C, relating back to a bad 1942 Yellow Fever serum.
Kevin then wrote “The Panama Story” weaving facts with fiction to assist others.
His free story, which reads like a John Grisham novel, is posted:
“What they do?
They smile in your face,
All the time they want to take your place, the back stabbers.
Smiling faces sometimes tell lies. I keep getting all these visits.
They come to my house again and again and again.
I wish they’d take some of these knives out of my back.
Smiling faces – they smile in your face.” The O’Jays’
Vaccine-A includes data and facts Kevin Drue Donnelly documented prior to his death August 5th, 2000.
This book discusses adenovirus, a word Kevin, a medic and medical researcher, knew little – to zip– about.
This book discusses Hepatitis and experimenting on military soldiers –without consent.
And this book Vaccine-A discusses Yellow Fever and bad serum from 1942.
The day I received the hardcover book in the mail,
it was as though my youngest brother Kevin tapped my shoulder — saying,
“See ??? I told you – I told you –– in five years time …”
“The time is always right to do what is right.” Martin Luther King, Jr.
Kevin did predict the number, five years.
Kevin shared other predictions.
Far too many have already become fulfilled, beginning the moment the police arrived at his house when his deceased body was found within the residence and the very first inaccuracies floated into the universe by Kevin’s widow, by teens and men who picked up boxes of research ––
Kevin’s cats were taken to be put-down the first day the shelter was open for business ––
Kevin shared these predictions with others – and even predicted the size of floral arrangements at his funeral, with exact wording on floral sashes, from his widow and stepchildren.
Kevin missed the prediction which became fact when not one of the floral arrangements from Kevin’s parents and Kevin’s siblings were placed near Kevin’s casket or the front of the room.
That one, Kevin missed, but it happened, folks. It did.
One can not make up the facts that were orchestrated so quickly ––
Just as Kevin predicted to my husband and to me, to people he knew –– and as a backup, Kevin shared his predictions with veterans, people he never met –– to ensure his words, his work and his efforts would never be forgotten.
Where others may have changed course or sold their work,
Kevin took the path of most resistance, hunkered in, continuing to help veterans, mothers of Hep C patients and to expand his work, his research.
“It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop.” Confucius (551-479 BC)
Prior to sharing additional facts this year and to continue to share what others have in their possession, per Kevin’s request:
You will see multiple stories to include illness, treatment (or lack thereof), military assistance (or lack thereof), side effects of illness and depression, family support (or lack thereof), professionals who claim to know the answers to your illness and your treatment (or lack thereof).
“When the tombstone is inaccurate,
you have to stand and make hard choices.”
Information may be referenced from direct links below.
Bookmark these links, then go back and read them.
First Year Tribute: “He Was A Brother, A Vet, and He Died Before His Time” Sequel to Kevin Drue Donnelly’s “The Panama Story,” August 4, 2001, By Kevin’s Sister, Monette Benoit
Second Year Tribute: “Still Listening, Still Waiting For The Truth, August 4, 2002” By Kevin’s Sister, Monette Benoit
Third Year Tribute: “Finally, A Eulogy for Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly in
Washington DC, Two Years and Nine Months After He Departed”
By Kevin’s Sister, Monette Benoit August 5th, 2003
Fourth Year Tribute and Memorial: Captain Kevin Drue Donnelly, August 4th, 2004, By Kevin’s Sister
Fifth Year Tribute: “Who, What, When, Where, How, Why, Part One” By Kevin=s Sister, Monette Benoit
“Why not go out on a limb?
Isn’t that where the fruit is?”
Frank Scully (1892-1964) American newspaper columnist
Gary Matsumoto’s book Vaccine-A shares facts:
“In 1939, a Japanese physician named Ryoichi Naito aroused suspicion when he showed up announced at New York’s Rockefeller Institute seeking samples of yellow fever vaccine ––
“Three years later, American was at war with Japan.
Fearing a possible biological warfare attack with yellow fever, the Army ordered the vaccination of U.S. troops in 1942 with an experimental yellow fever vaccine. …
“No soldier ever got yellow fever from a biological weapon, but many got hepatitis from the yellow fever vaccine.
It caused the largest epidemic of physician-induced viral hepatitis in recorded history.
Of the 141 yellow fever vaccine lots supplied to the Army, seven were made with human sera contaminated with the hepatitis B virus.
“Tests indicated that up to 330,000 U.S. military personnel in the Western Defense Command (which included Army bases in six western states and Hawaii) were injected with contaminated vaccine during basic training; some 51,000 American troopers were hospitalized with jaundice.
“In World War II, the average strength of a U.S. Army infantry division was around 14,250 men.
Going by this figure, the Army lost nearly four whole divisions to a badly made vaccine.” Source: Vaccine-A
“One way or another, I’m gonna find ya,
I’m gonna get ya, get ya, get ya.
One way or another, I’m gonna lose ya,
I’m gonna give ya the slip.” Pat Benatar
Kevin Drue Donnelly used the FOIA, Freedom Of Information Act, to document the bad Yellow Fever serum from 1942, which was given to soldiers.
Kevin researched, documented how the bad serum mutated, how soldiers were vaccinated – then soldiers and their medical symptoms and treatments (or lack thereof) were followed.
“Through the mirror of my mind, time and after time,
I see reflections of the way life used to be
Trapped in world that’s a distorted reality
Through the hollow of my tears,
I see a dream that’s lost.” Diana Ross
Vaccine-A shares: “For over thirty years, at the recommendation of the AFEB’s Commission on Influenza and under contract to the U.S. Army Research and Development Command, doctors from medical schools around the country injected experimental influenza and adenovirus vaccines into U.S. military personnel that sometimes included oil additives.”
When Kevin Donnelly was first diagnosed late 1997, he requested a copy of his military medical records in 1998.
Kevin, who was told by military superiors to “save everything, including your toilet paper if you can” (a common military quote), compared his original army medical records with the records he received.
“If you fall, I will catch you, time after time.
After my picture fades and my darkness turns to grey …
The drum beats out of time,
If you’re lost, and you look,
I will find you, time after time.” Cindy Lauper
Kevin, a medic and science scholar, discovered the word adenovirus handwritten within altered military medical records bearing his name.
Kevin spent much time chasing the origins of adenovirus vaccinations and possible reasons for altering his original military medical records.
“Brother, brother, brother’s there’s far too many of you dying.
What’s going on?” Marvin Gaye
Gary Matsumoto discusses the Tuskegee Study when U.S. Public Health Services, PHS, conducted a syphilis experiment on 399 Airmen, all African American beginning 1932 to 1972.
The Tuskegee Study was first published in the Washington Star, July 25, 1972 by Jean Heller, Associated Press after interviewing Peter Buxtun, a PHS employee, venereal disease interviewer.
Within Vaccine-A, Matsumoto writes about the “infamous hepatitis experiment at Willowbrook State School on New York’s Staten Island.
Between 1956 and 1972, New York University Professor Dr. Saul Krugman injected hepatitis into severely retarded children at Willowbrook in order to study the progression of the disease. … (Krugman was “a distinguished pediatrician and member of the Armed Forced Epidemiological Board, AFEB, … member of the advisory panel for the WHO, World Health Organization.”)
Krugman “sought and received the express approval of the Armed Forces Epidemiological Board, which funded the study.”
Matsumoto dates military experiments on soldiers back to General George Washington in 1775 and smallpox.
“To halt the epidemic and the desertions, the Northern Army resorted to ‘variolation’.
Doctors cut incisions into a healthy person’s arm and then deposited in the wound pus from an active smallpox sore.
This gave the patient a case of smallpox …
The following year, (General Horatio) Gates’s army, now free of smallpox, defeated the British at the Battle of Saratoga.
Seeing this result, Washington persuaded the Continental Congress to approve variolation for all new recruits.
It would be another twenty years before Britain’s Edward Jenner developed the world’s first smallpox vaccine.”
“George Washington resorted to an unproven medical procedure to help him prosecute a war.
The Army used an experimental vaccine to defend against a possible biological warfare attack in World War II.
“To protect troops, the Army has been doing that ever since, regularly using experimental flu and adenovirus vaccines to maintain operational readiness and to prevent an outbreak of killer flu like the one in 1918 that left more than twenty million dead.”
“ … The danger is when the wartime mentality takes hold of researchers conducting experiments on military personnel.”
“Soldiers, sailors, airmen and marines provide a ‘stable, long-term permanent study group,” to borrow Albert Sibin’s phrase – more so than civilian volunteers who may quit a study at any time, pack their bags and move, never to be heard from again.
Military personnel can’t do that.
They are on a short leash.
They also can’t refuse any medical treatment that has been ordered by their superiors.
New recruits must accept all immunizations, no questions asked, or face court martial.
For these and a variety of other reasons, military personnel make an ideal population for medical testing.
Since Tuskegge and Willowbrook they have been the only game in town.”
“ …Moreover, in the case of vaccine development there was a need for government intervention.
Because of low profit margins and high risk of product liability lawsuits, big pharmaceutical companies couldn’t get out of the vaccine business fast enough.
The public health establishment had to do something before vaccine manufacturing in the United States disappeared altogether.
“By forming strategic partnerships in the 1980s with big pharmaceutical companies and then running clinical trials with experimental vaccines on U.S. troopers, the military was serving a clear public interest.
“Large-scale vaccine trials on military personnel could entice pharmaceutical companies to keep making vaccines by reducing their exposure to litigation and thereby improve their bottom lines.
“… Thus, if a service member gets hurt by medical malpractice, or by the use of an investigational drug or vaccine, no one is accountable.
The Department of Defense indemnifies companies manufacturing its vaccines, and DOD cannot be sued for damages due to negligence. Military doctors don’t carry medical malpractice insurance because they don’t have to.”
“It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.” Charles Darwin
“ … The military gets a special loophole of the FDA, Food and Drug Administration.
In 1974, the same year the government passed legislation to allegedly impose strict guidelines on human experiments, the FDA also drafted a special agreement that enabled the Department of Defense to conduct its experiments secretly.
“When necessary for ‘national security,’ a Memorandum of Understanding between the FDA and the Department of Defense permits the military to administer investigational drugs to its personnel without informed consent, and without having to disclose this decision to the public, by classifying the trial.
“Whether a clinical trial is classified or not is solely at the Pentagon’s discretion. This is a loophole bigger than a barn door; it is, in practice, wider than an eight-lane Interstate.” Source: Vaccine-A, Gary Matsumoto
“Get back to where you once belong, get back Joe-Joe
Go home. Your momma’s waiting for you.
Get back to where you once belong.” Country Joe McDonald
Yes, folks, Kevin worked in the small room within his residence the last two years of his life researching, advocating, documenting facts similar to Gary Matsumoto, if not accurately the same.
Gary Matsumoto refined the bow, steadied the arrow and nailed the ‘fly to the wall’ with fact after fact, date after date, quote after quote, source after source.
One venue of facts Kevin researched was the involvement of medicine, viruses, population counting and the Rockefeller Foundation.
As my brother shared the twisting facts, I was, as others, initially skeptical.
I remember listening to his animated voice as he shared facts.
I remember frowning, sighing as a sister might –– initially.
But Kevin did have federal vans driving by his home with the U.S. seal displayed on its car doors.
He did have telephone lines tapped.
Neighbors verified this event, time and again.
“Every step you take, I’ll be watching you.
Every move you make, every file you make,
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake,
I’ll be watching you.” The Police, Sting
The last two-and-a-half years of Kevin’s life were battled by residents within the residence, by people who stole his research out of his office in his residence.
People phoned Kevin, deep into the night, to share “you’re getting closer, keep going” – people gave Kevin facts and documents, self-described actual whistle-blowers ––
The multiple battles circling around Kevin were huge ––
Kevin’s private world and his advocacy and research –– those battles were huge, but they were tiny compared to the ravages of the Hepatitis C virus within his body.
“You really got me now
Yeah, you really got me now
Oh, you really got me now
You got me so I can’t sleep at night.
You really got me. You really got me. Oh, no …” The Kinks
Kevin tracked buddies from the military, his troop, and learned that overwhelmingly, many had died, were dying or had recently been diagnosed with Hep C.
“If I could turn back time –
Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why, oh why, oh why, should one have to go on suffering.” R. Kelly
Kevin was able to track and document the fact that one evening he and all troop soldiers were awakened, called to the roadside, lined up single file.
They were, in fact, told they were being given an experimental shot for “non-Hep B.”
“I see reflections of the way life used to be …
Through the hollow of my tears, I see a dream that’s lost …
All my faith and trust right before my eyes …
My world has turned to dust …
Reflections of the way life used to be.” Diana Ross
Kevin’s one action that he could never forgive himself for was not what I’ve documented thus far and shared here.
Kevin Drue Donnelly could never forgive himself for having volunteered to be one of the first to receive the ‘non-Hep B’ vaccine, so this weary soldier, this grunt, could get a pass for “time off.”
“Take me home to the place I belong … take me home, country roads.
Down the road, I have a feeling I should have been home yesterday.”
A hospital ward in Germany was cleared in advance to the troop’s arrival. Kevin documented this fact with people who remembered prepping the hospital ward for a troop, which, they were informed, would arrive with a virus.
Kevin’s best memory of the hospital stay was two-fold:
He was not in sleeping in a tent, but sleeping in a real bed and the hospital ward had Playboy magazines lying all around.
“Out here in the fields, I fight for my meals …
I don’t need to fight to prove I’m right
I don’t need to be forgiven …
Sadly, take my hand, travel south cross land,
Put out the fire, and don’t look past my shoulder.
The exodus is here.
The happy ones are here.
Let’s get together before we get much older.”
The Who, Baba O’Riley
During his research, Kevin Drue Donnelly communicated directly with the Rockefeller Foundation.
He prepared his facts; Kevin prepared his data on revenue, vaccinations, counting of population.
“You can tell a man is clever by his answers.
You can tell a man is wise by his questions.”
Naguib Mahfouz (1911 – ), Nobel Prize Laureate
March 23, 2006 the Charlie Rose Show interviewed David Rockefeller.
The interview centered on the 50th anniversary of the Asia Society and Mr. Rockefeller, Philanthropist, Art Collector, banker, Chase Manhattan Bank.
“David Rockefeller’s brother, John D. Rockefeller III, founded the Asia Society in 1956 … exhibit covers five generations of Rockefeller, family and contributions of Asian art.
“1926, David Rockefeller, only eleven years old, parents took a boat, went to China for dedication of Peking Union Medical College, the first medical college or, indeed, good hospital in China”
“David’s parents went to the college opening, given by his father.
They were gone three months, in 1926 for Peking Union Medical College opening.
“The Rockefellers opened a university in China in 1926.
The Rockefellers and college began vaccinations in China 1938.”
This is part of the interview that evening March 23, 2006:
Charlie Rose: “And next picture shows India. …This is the Rockefeller Foundation. I just returned from India, and they are hoping there may be a second Green Revolution to come out to come out of the relationship today.
David Rockefeller: Wouldn’t that be great? I hope — I hope there is. My brother John at that time, I think was the chairman of the foundation, and he played an active role in getting the foundation interested to support the Green Revolution.
Charlie Rose: These are Chinese being vaccinated in 1938 because of – of some vaccines – population count – he (John) was also —
Charlie: — he was also very much interested in population –
David: — yes, he helped to start the population counts, yes —
Charlie Rose: These are the pictures of the malaria campaign, the Rockefeller Foundation?
David: Yes.” (Source: Charlie Rose Show)
“Press on. Nothing can take the place of persistence.”
Calvin Coolidge (1872-1933), 30th President of the U.S.
How is this interview important with details on malaria, population counting and yellow fever vaccinations?
Facts, data, people, history – they add up to interesting events, past and present.
“You can tell a man is clever by his answers.
You can tell a man is wise by his questions.”
Naguib Mahfouz (1911 – ), Egyptian novelist, Nobel Prize Laureate
Gary Matsumoto in Vaccine-A references Max Theiler, New York’s Rockefeller Institute scientist who, in 1939, “recently developed a yellow fever vaccine.”
Below are but a few emails my brother mailed direct to the Rockefeller Foundation and mentioned Max Theiler, referenced in Matsumoto’s Vaccine-A.
Kevin Donnelly sent this e-mail July 23, 1999:
“Subject: Rockefeller Foundation infects half the Planet with Hepatitis
To: Denise Grayfelder, <email@example.com>
CC: Senatory Rockefeller firstname.lastname@example.org
Now I have no choice do I? I contacted you first about your role in infecting almost half the Planet with Hepatitis and asked for your help. You asked me to send you my information linking the Rockefeller Foundation with the Contaminated Yellow Fever Serum and Hepatitis B Virus from the late 1930’s that Dr. Max Theiler developed in your labs; this I did.
Today, the Rockefeller Foundation funds the AIDS situation and not the Hepatitis illness that they afflicted upon this planet.
National Security is involved only because the Rockefeller Foundation is involved.
Time to educate the World. What will you say? That you did not infect one million Brazilians with Hepatitis in 1938?
Remember, you knew that serum was bad and encouraged others to use in on U.S. Military Personnel 4 years later.
Today 2.5 Million Veterans have Hepatitis! Today veterans must (get) behind the AIDS Community for help – you did that to these veterans.
Going to try and hide from us now? Kevin Donnelly”
“The national that destroys its soil, destroys itself.”
Franklin D. Roosevelt 1937
Kevin Donnelly sent this e-mail November 24, 1999:
“Subject: HCV Time line – 5 Million Veterans with HCV
To: Steve Jones, CDC; ALF, Liver Foundation; Denise Grayfelder, Rockefeller Foundation; WHO.
CC: Rep. Stearns, Secretary Shalala, Senator Coverdell, Senator Lott, Rep. Gutierrez, Marcia Sayer, Sen. Max Cleland, Rep. Shays, Senator McCain, Senator Specter, Senator Rockefeller.”
“Approximate Timeline for HCV”
“1900s Walter Reed dies after 2 years in Panama on Yellow Fever …..
1930s Max Theiler begins work on Yellow Fever vaccination …
Brazil has outbreak of ‘Hepatitis’ – blamed on vectors from Gambia
Max Theiler (from S. Africa) begins work on Yellow Fever vaccination at the Rockefeller Medical Institute
Theiler uses Pasteur’s Process to pass Yellow Fever through Mice brains, rather than rabbits. (rearrangements in RNA genomes PMID: 7596811) …..
1938 1 Million Brazilians now infected with Rockefeller’s/Theiler’s Yellow Fever/HBV vaccination
Japan’s General Ishii’s Aide comes to NY and Rockefeller to obtain ‘sample’ of Yellow Fever/HBV virus. … attached in Washington to obtain a sample of that strain of the Yellow Fever virus
Rockefeller funding Medical experiments in humans in both Germany and Japan, involved with Russians …..
Rockefeller’s Yellow Fever/HBV vaccine given to US Army Soldiers and Allied Troops. 330,000 infected …..
Acute Hepatitis causes a few deaths in the Military
–1943 Through sophisticated testing, the researchers pinpointed 1943 to 1949 as the years in which HCV initially spread in Japan
- J. Cohn begins to develop first generation ‘Immune Serum Globulin,’ ISG. More are contaminated …..
WWII Ends in Europe and Asia. Veterans go home and donate blood in all 50 states.
German War Crimes Trial
Rockefeller Manufactures 28 Million Doses of the Yellow Fever/HBV vaccine by this date. No record of any destroyed. All used? …..
–1951 Max Theiler wins Nobel Prize in Medicine for his work on a Yellow Fever Vaccination at the Rockefeller Institute ….
1952 Adenovirus magically appears only in Military basic training recruits from the mid-west – meet the ‘new’ 1918 Spanish Flu. Half mamilian and half avairian – or bird …
1962 Cancer research begins with Adenovirus on mouse cell(s)
1966 Mass inoculation with Yellow Fever vaccination from the Rockefeller Institute and given by pet-o-jets. …”
Kevin Donnelly sent an e-mail January 24, 2000:
“Subject: HCV transmission and Mosquitoes
To: NCID/VBI Public Inquiries email@example.com “CDC,
“ … I have researched the virus to the nucleotide for over two years and it appears that other than a public relations problem for you, and maybe a legal issue down the road, there is no valid reason why HCV, an Arbo-flavivirus, should not be transmitted by the same means as Yellow Fever.
Speaking of which, you claim on your web page that it does not occur in America. Funny, for a hundred years it did until Rockefeller used their vaccine on U.S. Military with HBV in it to infect half the planet.
From that point Yellow Fever vanishes in the USA. Why, they even transferred their program to YALE and changed the name in 1964, once they knew there was a problem with HCV.
Why should America believe the CDC now after decades of misleading us about HCV? There are WW II and Korean War vets with HCV today. Either the CDC deliberately misled the American people, or they completely missed an illness that has existed since MAX THEILER first ran Yellow fever through mice brains, then minced in human serum as a stabilizer.
Since you had the perfect opportunity to gauge the HCV problem in NY while you were testing for what you’ve told the public is a rare virus from Africa, versus a population in the NY area that probably is almost 1 MILLION with HBV, HCV, HGV, or TTV.
Why was I taught in the military that vectors transmit blood-borne viruses, but when it comes to someone being held accountable for a virus, then suddenly insects have no bearing – except on Wall Street where many are cashing in on the promise of HCV research in insect cells – something the CDC claims does not occur.
But then again you have called almost 8 million veterans with HCV, junkies. But the research says the CDC and Rockefeller are responsible for more deaths than all the Wars this past century combined.
Trust is something we no longer have in you or your organization. That harms us all.
Why have you lied to millions of us?
I do not mind dying from HCV. But, I wholeheartedly have no respect for ‘trusted’ public institutions that mislead Citizens to the point of death – the largest group being veterans that have served.
Kevin Donnelly, Captain, USAR”
“Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide,
when it’s soul-deep, deep inside.
Got nowhere to run, got nowhere to hide.
Martha Reeves And The Vendellas
Kevin Donnelly wrote a letter and e-mail to the Defense Department, Charlie Y. Talbott, OATSD, PA, Room, 2C757, The Pentagon, Washington, D.C. 20229, Wednesday, 29 December 1999:
“Dear FOIA Officer: This is a request filed under the Freedom of Information Act.
I request that all documents containing information regarding the following topic be provided to me:
Relating to the 1942 Yellow Fever and HBV contaminated vaccine given to US Army Soldiers in 1942.
In order to help to determine my status to assess fees, you should know that I am an individual seeking information for personal use and not for commercial use.
I am willing to pay fees for this request up to a maximum of $ 100. If you estimate that the fees will exceed this limit, please inform me first.
Reason for wavier: Researching Yellow Fever
Thank you for your consideration of my request.
Sincerely, Kevin Donnelly”
“With or without you, with or without you,
The storms reach the shore, we gave it all, but I want more,
And I wait for it, with or without you, with or without you.
And you give yourself away, and you give, you give yourself away.” Sting
Kevin Donnelly forwarded an e-mail he composed, Tuesday, 4, January 2000 (he had been in an ER ward, days earlier, on his last Christmas Eve and Christmas morning, driven by a neighbor, Marine veteran):
“Just a note …. I have now finished consolidating most of the time line info – that I have been collecting from the past two years.
But I’m time lined out by now, but, it is a must if we are to have a better understanding of who, what, when and the where’s – concerning hepatitis today.
I posted the CIA info to show what the spies were doing while this was all going on. I see no CIA HCV connection – only (Max) Theiler’s work with Yellow fever for HCV and radiation involved from the start with HBV.
I must now figure out how to best send out the “Master Time-Line” with all the other time lines integrated into it. It is fascinating and reads like a trail through the 20th Century – the good and the bad of it.
This is all a process like honing a knife – slowly, the picture emerges.
Only, it involves areas that many would rather not face or have to deal with – for some, this may be the best time to finally put this behind us.
Some say, in order to move forward you must know where you’ve been – personally, I just want the truth. Kevin :>) “
“Mathematics possesses not only truth, but supreme beauty,
a beauty cold and austere, like that of sculpture.” Betrand Russell
To gather the ending of this Sixth Year Tribute to Kevin Drue Donnelly:
Head down, I share had Kevin’s research and the two items Kevin’s parents requested been returned to his mother and father –– had Kevin’s non-monetary items been shared,
I, as others, would have walked away without many glancing back to the bleak dark memories.
My life would have continued on its path, as others who have lost loved, dear family members.
“But isn’t that they way they say it goes
I’ve overcome the blow; I’ve learned to take it well?
I only wish my words would convince myself
That it just wasn’t real, but that’s not the way it feels
No, no, no, no, that’s not the way it feels. Jim Croce
Yet I must share that each time I, Kevin’s Sister, do intend to walk away,
an event occurs, a prediction becomes true, more data supports facts that others and Kevin worked upon so hard –– and died –– to preserve for us.
“When the tombstone is inaccurate,
you have to stand and make hard choices.”
We would not spend hours, documenting, sharing, backing up our work, continuing to discuss the movie with true facts, additional details.
“Until it ends, there is no end.
All through the night stray cat is crying,
So stray cat sings back all through the night …
And once we start, the meter clicks,
And it goes running all through the night …
Until it ends, there is no end.” Cindy Lauper
Gary Matsumoto ends Vaccine-A with acknowledgments,
“Leveling allegations of this magnitude against two of the most powerful bureaucracies in the world – the U.S. Department of Defense and the Department of Health and Human Services – is not for the fainthearted.
“But if some of my secular-minded friends will pardon my lapse into the quasi-theological, I have to say that whenever I have faltered, I have always received help.
“I didn’t find it; it found me. And so I kept going.”
As Kevin’s Sister, I understand, Gary Matsumoto, author Vaccine-A.
You are brave, Gary, as is Anderson Cooper, author Dispatches From The Edge.
Captain Drue Donnelly was also brave and he understood, author The Panama Story.
“Open up the window, let some air into this room.
I’ve seen so many things I ain’t never seen before.
Mama told me not to come.
She said, son, that ain’t the way to have fun.”
Three Dog Night
I, as others, never wanted on this path.
Veterans with illness, patients who become ill, and family members who watch from the sidelines or who themselves acquire illness must build teams with better communication.
We have much to teach other.
The teacher always learns much from the student.
In fact, the student becomes the teacher.
When the student is ready, the teacher appears.
When the teacher is ready, the student appears,
and Lord, there are millions of students here who will be our teachers when we really listen.
Then the veteran, the patient, with much to give, will share much.
Then the large machines behind the vaccines, the drugs, the experimentations will alter the course Gary Matsumoto predicts in Vaccine-A.
“Lend me your ears, and I’ll sing you a song,
and I’ll try not to sing out of key.
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends,
What do you see when you turn out the light?
I can’t tell you but I know it’s mine.
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends,
With a little help from my friends.” John Lennon
We share responsibly when we discuss the truth, the facts and when we support each other.
My goal this year is:
To create moments where we transform the message of inaccuracies;
To transform hopelessness of disease and private inner residences
To bring awareness and answers with understanding, compassion, advocacy and hope.
My wish to you: May it be so.
“Welcome to your life, there’s no turning back
It’s my own design;
It’s my own remorse
Help me to decide;
Help me to make the most of freedom and of pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever.”
Tears For Fears
We have a saying now in our family:
“When the tombstone is inaccurate,
you have to stand and make hard choices.”
August 5, 2006